Where to start

Where do I start? I don’t know which - is why I am here creating this blog. I am lost on how to even begin. Maybe I should define what happiness means to me. When you look from the outside in, my life appears great. Good job, loving husband, two wonderful teens (as wonderful as teens can be). Still I feel lonely and kinda empty. I wouldn’t say depressed, just lost. I spent so much time raising my kids, building a career, supporting my husband as he opened a business, I now don’t know who I am and what makes me happy. I have grown and changed as we do in life but I have lost track of me. 

As my life transitions away from being required for everything- dinner, cleaning, shopping, driving to sports and play dates, I am lost. What do I enjoy? Who are my friends? Do I really have friends or are they just the parents of my kids friends and other dance and hockey moms?  I don’t know. The more I think of it the more I realize how bad I am at making friends. I was always quiet, kinda shy growing up but I generally had friends. Never really thought anything of it. University I meet people in class, had roommates but never really made friends. Did I never really learn how to make friends?

The more I ramble on the more I think I need to start my journey by exploring friendship. What is friendship to me? What makes someone a true friend? Yes, I still have my close childhood friends that I can text anytime but they live in a different country now. 

Goal: Define what friendship means to me.